I have been meditating a lot in the last days. I have been thinking a lot about my Mom, about Natalie, about my Grandma that I never met, and about myself. We couldn't be more different from each other, we have different personalities, but we have one thing in common and that is that emotionally, we all had to grow up faster than the regular girls because we had to face experiences that made us forget a little bit about ourselves in order to think and help other people around us.
I observe Natalie and I see how she is already aware of how much help Diego needs. I see her trying to teach him new things, I see her protecting him and loving him so much. It reminds me of myself when I was a little girl and I was trying to make my sister happy so she didn't have to go through her periods of deep depression.
I realize that I still want to be a little girl, I want to be the little girl that I didn't have time to be many years ago and my Mom feels the same way. When she was growing up she never had a single doll and now she is the happiest girl when she goes to a toy store with all kinds of dolls. I still cannot believe that I the age of twelve my Mom had to see her own Mother deteriorate until her death. That's how she grew up, taking care of her sick Mom, she took care of her with her own hands day by day until the last day.
Things like that are so unfair. I was watching a documentary the other day about the work that some women were doing in poor countries to help young girls develop and have a decent life. I felt so connected to those girls. But I think that regardless of our happy of hard childhood, as girls, we are all very similar. There is something unique that connects us all in our hearts and all these thoughts made want to create a series of pieces titled Old Soul Girls.
I think that being a girl is such a great thing. It is hard sometimes because we have to make ourselves strong in order to survive all the challenges that girls have to face but that's OK. The more you have to work on yourself the more you enjoy the things that you accomplish.
If you are a girl I just want to send you a big hug and I want to tell you that you're not alone, we are all connected and we can do amazing things if we believe in ourselves. Now that 2008 is almost gone it is a great time to start thinking about the things that we want to do in 2009. This is a good time for following our dreams and for feeling really strong and self-confident about ourselves. I can't wait for 2009 to start, I always see a new year as a blank canvas and I can't wait to start my new creative work on that 2009 canvas.
All my love for you and I will see you tomorrow!
(And there is a girl in particular that I am so proud of, her name is Margie and she is a real inspiration. I remember when she was dreaming of having her own blog and her own Etsy store. I am so happy to tell you that she made both things happen with her own creative mind and hands. Today she has a wonderful blog and she just opened her Etsy store with great success. And on top of that she is a family Physician who takes care of lots of people who need her. Doesn't that deserve a big ovation? CONGRATULATIONS MARGIE!!!!)