Rene's Report (post 2)

 

By the time the surgeon showed up we were extremely nervous. Somehow we started having the weird feeling that something was wrong, even though the surgery had been so quick. 

The Dr. arrived and talked to us In such a direct way, so straight forward that it took about a minute for us to react. Unfortunately he had bad news. Rene's thymoma was not a small encapsulated tumor as he expected but a mass that had already started to invade other areas that are just too painful for me to mention here. I tried to illustrate it on the picture #2. The picture #1 is what the Dr. and ourselves had in mind before the surgery. 

All I can say is that that was the most painful day of my life. I have suffered all kinds of pains, but knowing that a loved one is in serious risk is the most traumatic feeling that I ever experienced.

We had a moment of collapse, but fortunately and because the human brain is something amazing, we started, little by little, putting all the pieces of our broken hearts back together.

Up to this point the thing that made us think positive was the fact that the surgeon had been able to take the invasive mass out of Rene's body. There are cases when this cannot be done, that's why the surgery was considered successful. But the truth is that what's coming next is a tough effort to extend Rene's life as much as possible. The chemotherapy will start soon and it will be aggressive because the cancer is already in his blood cells.

Forgive me if I need to say that I have felt weak/unsure about sharing something so sensitive in this blog. But I'm doing it (with my brother's permission) because there is so much for us to learn from Rene's story. I believe that we're all a human family and we all have something to learn from each other. Right now I see Rene not only as my beloved brother, but also as an amazing and inspiring human being. He's my hero and my teacher right now. In other posts I will tell you why.

Comments

[susan]

Elsa - this was not the happy conclusion to your prior mail I was hoping for. I will continue to keep you and Rene and your families in my thoughts. And I understand your hesitation to post this story on your blog, but apart from your point about maybe helping someone else by sharing (I totally agree), I also think it cannot hurt that so many people are sending all of their most positive thoughts to Rene.
Hang in there sweetie. xxx

[Diane]

I am so sorry that this is the case. I am sending all of my good karma to you and your brother and your family.

[Vicki]

Oh, Elsita,

I am so sorry to hear your sad news. I was so sure today's post was going to be good news.

I am sending all the positive energy I have to you, your brother and the rest of your family and loved ones.

xoxo

[Rosalie]

I have read your blog for a long time now and for some reason have never left a comment...I just want you to know that I am praying and sending all kinds of good thoughts toward Rene.

[Mim]

((hugs)) and prayers for Rene and all of your family members.

[Christine]

Elsita--I understand this is a deeply personal and sensitive thing to be sharing here on the blog. Thank you for being so honest and open. Sending all kinds of good healing positive energy to your brother Rene with the smiling eyes.

[Dawn]

You are a brave person for sharing this and it is a true inspiration to me and my children. I am so thankful for you open heart. Sending all the goodness we can your way.

[cat]

I send my warmest wishes and love to you and your family right now. Your being with Rene was a wonderful gift for both of you.

[colleen (bcharmer)]

Sending you love and healing energy for Rene and your whole family. Thank-You for sharing.

[Janet]

This was not the post I hoped for. Thank you for sharing this. I am sending all my best wishes to Rene and your whole family.

[Christina Conway]

Hugs to you and your family, thinking of you and sending my warmest best wishes. xox Thank you for sharing something so personal.

[Janet M]

I'm sending you love and prayers for your brother. I'm hoping for a positive outcome.

[Ana]

Sending prayers to Rene, you and the rest of your family.

[Flassie]

{{{Lifting Up Prayers for Rene and Family}}}

He's on my Prayer List!!

God Bless Rene's Health!!!

God Bless You and Yours!!!

[Mariella :)]

Thank you for being so brave and sharing your brother's story. It's not an easy thing to do....

Wishing you and your family lots of strength in this very difficult time in your life.

Hugs,

[lilly]

I'm so glad to hear the surgery was a success and I'm wishing your brother all the best with the chemo. Make sure he has a comfy lazy boy chair for those chemo days! I know it helped me to hear hopeful stories when my dad was sick, so I wanted to tell you this: My dad had a kind of chronic leukaemia a few years ago, that the doctors said he had a slim chance of beating, but he's now in remission from it. I hope this will be the case for your brother, too! Cancer sucks!

[Ani Castillo]

No comento mucho pero solo quiero decirte que estás (tú y tu hermano) en nuestros pensamientos, ojalá que todo todo salga lo mejor posible, y que ustedes estén bien

un abrazo!

Ani

[Bloom]

Dear Elsita, my heart goes out to you and your dear brother Rene. You are very generous to share your story. My prayers are with you, all the way from Australia. Stay your brave & optimistic self and strength to Rene.

[Ana Gonzalez]

Mucha fuerza y serenidad para ti en estos momentos tan dificiles y a tu hermano le deseo lo mejor. Un abrazo

[Shelly]

Thinking of you and your family while you go through this tough time and sending hugs your way!

Shelly

[Ellie]

Hello Elsita, I am so sorry to hear this news. I hope the chemotherapy is a success, and I hope you get to spend lots more happy time with your brother. Its very hard to know how to comment when its such a serious and emotional thing, but I wanted to show my support. Lots of love to you, Ellie...

[lolo]

Je te souhaite aisni qu'à ton frère beaucoup de courage!

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stay strong and take special care of yourself
don't forget how much we all love and care for you
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m

[Ann K.]

Sending xxxooo to Rene and to you. The love you have for one another will help you through this hard, hard time. We are all pulling for Rene!

[Lois Collins]

Awww Elsita, I'm so sorry to hear the news.I've been thinking alot about you and your brother and what a fantastically strong bond you have.I really hope the chemo goes well. There's a natural supplement called Biobran that I recommended to a friend who was having chemo. She said it helped with some of the after effects. Obviously she asked the doctors first if it waould be ok to take, but it's recommended by Cancer centres in the Uk! (I've sent you info on Facebook.)
Big big hugs to you and your family, xxxx

[Allison]

I am so very sorry for this news. I know the feeling of having a close family member diagnosed with cancer and being terrified for the future. Cherish every moment you have with your brother.

[Nidia Hernandez]

Elsita,

My thoughts are with you at this time. Cancer has certainly touched a loved one in many of out lives. My prayers go out to you, Rene and the family. Bendiciones.

Nidia in Miami

[Susana]

mucho carino y fuerza para tu hermano, para ti y para toda tu familia, gracias por compartir su historia y por inspirarnos a amar(nos) mas

...

a lot of love and strength to your brother, to you and to all of your family, thanks for sharing his story and for inspire us all to love more

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So sad News...I will pray for Rene....
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[Alexis]

I am holding your family in my thoughts.

[Lucia]

Sending you and your family lots of love, prayers and good thoughts. Thank you for sharing your family with us.

[Nicole Henshaw]

Elsa,
I just read your blog for the first time because I read about you in Blogging For Bliss as I do my research to start my own blog. I am so sad to read the news about your brother that I have read today. There is NOTHING more scarey than dealing with cancer, chemo, and the imotional rollercoaster ride that goes along with it. May I share a link with you that I have been following and have supported for several years. http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/vinnydigerolamo/journal?jid=5855760 While you may know of Caringbridge.org I wanted to suggest it as well. It is an online community for people with cancer and is the same as blogging however your blogging in this community. This site is WONDERFUL for support in addition a field to be used for updating everyone you know at one time and allowing people to comment just to that sight as well. My thoughts are with you during this difficult time and may your family, your brother, your blogger friends surround you with love, faith, and support. Elsa, miracles do happen, Vinny this child very dear to my heart just had Hospice in his home in the spring. Through the wealth of support and prayers, and answered prayers; Vinny's tumor is gone, the one that brought in Hospice. So don't give up, fight, pray, hold his hand, and through this he will be a winner.

Sincerely,
Nicole

[MOM]

Elsita, pienso igual que tu, que somos una familia y que todos tenemos algo que aprender de los otros. Así es que, gracias por compartir tus pensamientos, tus alegrías y tus penas con nosotros tus lectores y admiradores. Ánimo Elsita y pon a tu hermano en manos del Señor. Yo oraré por él, por ti y por tu familia! Un fuerte abrazo! Mónica

[larissa]

Elsita, I can't imagine what you are feeling right now. I just wanted to send my encouragement and let you know I will pray for Rene and your family!

[riye]

Dear Elsita: We have a similar situation at my house. All I can say is that yes its very hard but stay strong and focused. My mom and I still laugh all the time, even when she's down. You and your family are survivors and fighters--you can do it. My best wishes for you, Rene, and the rest of your family.

[Olivia]

Hola Elsa. Pasé por acá y quería desearte que consigas la fuerza necesaria para que atravieses esta prueba familiar. También quería compartir contigo una idea que se me ocurrió cuando leí tu nota hace unos días.
Leyendo a Loise L Hay en You Can Heal Your Life, ella habla del poder de la visualización para ayudar al cuerpo a sanar del cáncer. Dice, que uno debe pensar y enfocarse en una imagen de amor,que refleje como las células van sanando poco a poco y el cuerpo se va recuperando. Pensé entonces que quizás sería un magnífico momento para que ilustres de alguna manera esa etapa de curación y se la obsequies a tu hermano para ayudarlo a enfocarse en su mejoría. Nadie como tú, para crear una imagen así de hermosa a la que él pueda volver cada noche antes de irse a la cama en su mente.
Un abrazo O.

[Katie Watts]

Love and strength to Rene, to you and your family xxxx

[marta]

Elsa, a hug full of light for your brother and family. Be strong, believe always.

love,

Marta

[Snippety Gibbet]

Oh, Elsa.......I am sending your brother and your family my very best thoughts and will keep all of you close to my heart. jan

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querida Elsa:

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[Elaine Susan Howard]

Dear Elsita,
I read about your brother on another site and I just wanted you to know I am very sorry to hear about his illness. I pray that God our Father will heal him and uphold you and your family as you go through this struggle.

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[cherry]

Good web! Elsa, a hug full of light for your brother and family. Be strong, believe always.

[elsa]

hi tia I totally love all the cute little art works totally say hi to everyone over there take care from Elsa.