On May 15th of
2003 a little hummingbird died in my studio The tiny creature couldn’t find his
way out, but he tried really hard for several minutes. I did everything I could
to help him reach one of the windows but he was so scared, he kept throwing his
body against the walls.
Seeing the little bird
motionless on the floor was one of the saddest experiences that I ever
had. I buried him in our garden
with a good-bye note and I cried as if I had lost someone that I had known for
Then, next day, five weeks
before the due date my first baby was born. Seeing Natalie’s little face for
the first time was pure magic, pure joy.
That very night the image of
the little bird came back to me in
a dream. The little bird was giving birth to Natalie. I was puzzled trying to understand the meaning of my
dream. I kept thinking and thinking until I found my very personal answer:
After death there is always life. After something is lost there is always something new coming into our lives. After pain there is always growth and after fear there is courage.
These ideas inspired me to create a whole series of works that I showed in
New York with Phyllis Kind Gallery a few years ago. All the pictures in this post and the series of photographs in my 5 previous were part of that show
(you can click of the pictures to see them larger)
I decided to share this work with you (even if it's not recent) because in the last weeks I have thought a lot about loss (my niece's babies, her home...) and my old show had a lot to do with these ideas.
The thing is that I was extremely happy to get an e-mail from my niece saying that they have finally found a new house. It's a lot smaller than the one lost in the earthquake but she's confident that with lots of love she will be able to turn it into a new loving home. Graciela is my hero right now for many reasons but the main reason is:
Because she's not afraid of to start over again.
The bottom line of this post is: don't let fear and pain to paralyze you. Whenever you find something hard to explain in life, something hard to process, something hard to understand, don't stop moving. Let the natural cycle of life take you to the next level and one day, before you even know a stronger you will wake up in the morning, full of hope.
Just like my niece Graciela.
It's not easy and sometimes it's not fast but one thing is for sure: IT IS POSSIBLE IF YOU BELIEVE IT.
Have a wonderful Monday!